This has been a long time coming for me. My apologies that this has taken me so long to start writing again. After losing some dear friends, relationships that crumbled, stresses within my personal life, I have found it hard to find the motivation to do this again. I have come to the realization that my Battles are extremely Heavy, but why God???? This is a question that I have been praying about daily, multiple times and not feeling like I was getting the answer I was searching for. There is the first problem, I was looking for an answer that would never come because I wasn't ready for it. The answer I wanted was not the one that I would eventually receive. I have come to realize that the reason my battles feel so heavy is because God is using them to make me strong. To prepare me for what is coming. The only way to become stronger is to lift something heavy. The beauty in this is that even though it is heavy, God will not let me lift it on my own, He is there always to help me, all I need to do is ask and he will come meet me in the dirt, right where I am standing, struggling. You have to go through something heavy in your life so that you will understand just how good God is. I have asked God for things to become easier. Then I realized that if things were easy, why would I Pray??? Failing at being in control of everything happening in my life is showing me just how much I have to trust in Him. Now for all of you that are struggling, please don't lose your Faith. Being broken and shattered into a million pieces will show you how loving of a Father God is as He puts you back together, better, happier, thankful, and lets not forget stronger. We would never understand this if we were never allowed to be broken. Everyone goes through battles, turn to God for help because He has your back. Praise Him in all situations, good, bad, difficult, or heavy.
On Sunday I came across a post from some friends and classmates showing an obituary for an old friend who I will just refer to as James. H...