Empathy... Gift or Curse??

 I will start this by saying not in any way, shape or fashion am I claiming to be psychic or have a special ability to converse with spirits or anything like that.  This Isn't a story about the sixth sense where I claim in a huge twist that "I See Dead People."  Which btw I feel was a very well done movie and yet so creepy.  What would you describe as Empathy?  Google says Empathy is The ability to understand and share the feelings of others.  Now you can go both ways with this.  A lack of empathy is what most professionals would say that psychopaths have.  They don't feel that taking a life or causing that kind of pain isn't normal.  A true lack of  an emotional connection to the world around them.  Now a confession about me that only a few know.  I have been called an empath because of my uncanny ability to feel others emotions.  This is something that I have kept secret and, until now most have never known.  I don't have much control over what I feel or how I feel it.  It can be great and amazing or can drag me down depending on the situation.  This is why sometimes I ask God why do I experience these things in this way?  To this day I don't believe that I have ever heard a voice communicating to me as God the Father.  When a person says they speak with God this is confusing to me because I have never experienced this.  Perhaps this is something we can discuss at a later date.  So back to my X-Men mutant ability.  I mean come on this has to be like half a step from Professor X level abilities right??  LOL.  There are times when I feel overwhelmed with emotions for reasons I can't explain.  I have teared up at the simplest of things but and been angry over nothing. Here's an example, the other day Amy was dealing with some stressful issues that weren't actually caused by me,(btw most are, I know I'm working on it) and before I walked into the house I could feel this rush of emotion just hit me like a tidal wave.  I did my best to stay in control but it was clearly winning, to the point hat Amy thought there was something wrong.  I tried to tell her that I'm fine just have to unplug for a bit.  When you're married to an overthinker spoiler alert this doesn't help.  I had to give it to God to help me.  A silent prayer asking for his help.  On the flip side there are times that I experience so much excitement or happiness that I can't stop the tears from flowing.  When I was younger I felt that this was a curse.  God punishing me, making me endure not just my pain but everyone else around me.  I will be honest with you, I really felt this way at times until recently.  I believe everyone on this earth are given gifts from God. Some people are skilled hunters, craftsmen, artists, athletes, and writers.  You get the point.  Clearly writing wasn't mine.  Empathy is a gift.  I experience the world in a different way.  I now see that this gift has brought me closer to God and Jesus.  This gift has changed my life.  Amy has helped me to understand this.  I would not be the man before you now, without this amazing Gift.  This blog isn't easy for me.  I have mostly kept my feelings to myself.  Keeping people at a distance, even family.  Changing my perspective from this is a curse to a gift from God has been life changing.  In closing I will just say that in times of need or struggle, go to God.  A silent prayer will start you on a path of communication with The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit, changing your life forever.  Things that you see as a curse can really be that gift you need in your life.  It's all part of God's amazing plan.