Different...

 Remember how I have said that we will all go through stormy seasons???  Currently I am going through one.  This storm is hitting me on all sides, personally, professionally, spiritually.  The enemy is coming at me full force.  There is a very real possibility that I may lose my job in just a matter of weeks because of budget cuts.  I am trying to get ahead of this by applying for other positions at other companies.  I believe yesterday was my 30th no thanks email.  I think I handle rejection as well as anyone , but this is driving my stress levels to all time highs.  I understand that you cannot have anxiety and Faith both at the same time.  I am pushing hard into my Faith in Jesus Christ, but I am getting radio silence again.  No, God doesn't owe me an answer, but anything would be better than silence.  There is an old saying that I use on occasion "Your silence is deafening."  I'm not going to lie, my Faith is being tested big time.  Have you ever found yourself in this position?  I'm sure that many of you have.  I continue to Pray everyday about these situations.  Amy said something to me last night that hit me right in the heart.  She said that maybe what I have been Praying for are the wrong questions to be asking at this time.  She truly is a Blessing from God.  I have talked about changing your perception just a little in other posts.  I need to do the same.  So, I get to my office this morning and turn on my youtube playlist for the day and out of nowhere is the song by Micah Tyler, "Different."  Guess God likes to answer in ways you don't quite expect.  Does this answer my questions about my future?  Nope, but it does show me that I am the one needing to be changed.  Thank You God for that little life lesson.  For anyone who hasn't heard that song you really should listen to it.  Life will happen, and stress is part of that.  Run to God and ask Him to not fix your problems, but to make you different so that you can handle these stormy seasons when they come.  God has a Plan for your life, and he will meet you in that valley to listen and never abandon you.  Remember that when life gets hard.

Different by Micah Tyler

I don't wanna hear anymore, teach me to listen
I don't wanna see anymore, give me a vision
That you could move this heart, to be set apart

I don't need to recognize, the man in the mirror
And I don't wanna trade Your plan, for something familiar
I can't waste a day, I can't stay the same

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
'Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there's something different
So come and be different
In me

And I don't wanna spend my life, stuck in a pattern
And I don't wanna gain this world but lose what matters
And so I'm giving up, everything because

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
'Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there's something different
So come and be different, oh

I know that I am far from perfect (oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
But through You, the cross still says I'm worth it (oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
So take this beating in my heart and
Come and finish what You started
When they see me, let them see You
'Cause I just wanna be different, yeah

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
'Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Ooh, is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there's something different
So come and be different
I just wanna be different
So could You be different
In me